a little something for my dad

today is my dads 57 birthday & 

yesterday marked 14 years since he died.

i only had a short amount of time with my dad.

he was diagnosed with cancer when i was 3 years old & died 6 years later.

but i learned a lot from him. he taught me to work hard for what i want,

to work hard to succeed, not to be judgmental & to find humor in all situations.

i learned the importance of keeping your word, to stand up for who you are.

it's really crazy to think that he's been gone for so long.

i feel like it was just yesterday that he was here,

but at the same time it feels like he's always been gone.

i always think about it when the big things in my life come & go.

it's weird to think cedar won't meet him & that my husband won't either.

or that he wasn't at my wedding. that sort of thing.

i hope that i've grown to be someone he would be proud of.

i'm lucky to have so many memories of my dad.

the best memories i have is how much fun i always had when i was with him.

how i couldn't wait for him to come home from work, 

so i would call his office asking when he would be home, 

just about everyday. 

how much love and comfort i felt when i was with him.

he made me feel like i was his favorite person

in the world to be with (which i'm sure i was).

& the entire family talking & laughing in the living room together.

happy birthday dad!