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since having cedar it's been hard to find the time to workout. while i was pregnant i had myself convinced that it would be easy to make the time. & i truly could not wait to start working out again. i'm sad to say i have only gone running twice since having cedar in june. & have only gone rock climbing once since having cedar. these are things i thought i would be able to do a lot more. but you know.. it's pretty hard. i never really thought how time consuming these things are. plus, i have a lot more responsibility now. it's been a little hectic & i obviously have not made working out a priority.
my sister-in-law teaches a barre fitness class every wednesday night, & i have been wanting to go, so i finally went last night. before going i got tempted not to go. a friend was in town & wanted to meet for dinner & i really wanted to say yes. but then i decided that was the absolute worst reason not to work out... to eat. so i proudly said i couldn't & i went off to barre.
the class was such an intense workout, i really had no clue what i was getting myself into. & there's seriously so little even done at the barre.. it surprised me. but you know what, i really liked it & enjoyed it. i miss the burning feeling my body gets after a good workout, & how accomplished i feel afterwards. i'm so happy i actually stayed committed & went to the class. i'm going to make it a goal to go every week.
going to the class made me realize how much i do love pushing my body, how i crave the desire & i enjoy a good workout. i feel so good about myself, it sort of gives me a rush. i want to get back to where i was this time last year. i swear i was in my fitness prime. i was stronger than i had been before, we were rock climbing a lot & i had just finished my third 1/2 marathon & signed up for my fourth. i just need to remember the time & dedication that it takes. i know it won't be easy, but i have to keep going, for myself. i don't want to keep wishing i was in better shape, i want to actually be in better shape.