WARBY PARKER QUINTESSENTIALS

 i have been a long time fan of warby parker. i love that you can order & try on glasses at home *for free* before committing. how awesome is that? i've done their at-home try on before for their glasses but never for their sunglasses until now. they recently launched their quintessential sunglass line which is so rad. the frames are total classics, there were so many that i wanted to try that it was hard to narrow it down just to 5.

i had such a fun time trying out all of the different glasses that i ordered. i tried to order different glasses than what i normally would go for cause with 5 options, why not? it's fun to try them out & actually wear them to see what i did or didn't like. i love how light weight their glasses were, they are so easy to wear & are totally effortless.

if you're looking for new sunglasses for the spring/ summer you need to check out warby parker's sunglass line. i promise, there is something for everybody on there. you won't regret it.

ADIOS, CALIFORNIA


a few weeks ago some friends & i went to santa barbara & took these pictures with the kids & i'm so glad that we did. i love having these pictures of our time in california with the boys.
we did it. we have officially moved. we've known since last summer that we would be moving to utah & it always felt like we had so much time left in california, that it really snuck up on us. i had gone to florida the weekend before our move & while i was there austin ended up packing a lot of our things which was so nice & helpful because the week before our move was craaaaazy. both the kids got crazy sick, cedar has never missed school for being sick & couldn't go which was so sad since it was his last week, but luckily he was good enough to go on his last day. & on top of that trying to pack what was left, getting all of our good-bye's in, & milos second birthday! it was so busy. but we managed & we even threw milo a little party the day before we left which was a perfect send off. it's been emotional but i think the change will be good, at least that's what i keep reminding myself. it will all be good.

a few weeks ago some friends & i went to santa barbara & took these pictures with the kids & i'm so glad that we did. i love having these pictures of our time in california with the boys.

FLORIDA



last weekend i got the chance to have a kid free weekend. my sister had to go to florida for work & had to leaved before her kids were able to go, so she asked if i'd be willing. obviously, i said yes. a break sounded pretty good to me & it was. i flew out thursday night & friday morning my sister & i went to tampa where she was working & i crashed at the hotel for a few hours before going out to explore.

after waking up i headed to st. petersburg, where i went to the salvador dali museum, wandered around the city, walked along the water & grabbed some food. afterwards i went & met up with my sister & we got dinner at datz which was so good & cute. the menus looked like newspapers & the menu was super unique, it was really good!

on saturday i was a total bum. i had plans to wake up & go to the beach but then i ended up sleeping in, watching tv & by the time i left the hotel it was 12:30, so i ended up just going to get some food & explore tampa while i waited for my sister to finish work. i looked up where to eat & found a place called oxford exchange. it was such a cool place, there's a book shop, homewares store, warby parker section, restaurant, cafe & so much more all in one place, it was crazy. it was really awesome looking too. i showed up thinking i could just walk in, since there was only one of me, buuuut when i got there at 1:15 they said the next reservation wasn't until 2:45, so i was wrong, haha. i ended up eating at the cafe which suited me just fine, i sat at the bar & read while i had a solo brunch.

afterwards i walked around tampa university which was seriously so pretty. the buildings were really cool looking, pretty unique. i was surprised at how much tampa did have to offer... i mean, florida has never really been on my radar but it definitely has some charm to it & interesting places to see. i'm regretting that i never made it to the beach, but there's always next time.

it was actually weird having so much alone time. there are days where the kids are driving me wild & i want a break sooooo bad, but to actually have all of that alone time was weird! it was hard for me to get used to it at first, but after a while it was sort of nice. i actually was able to slow down & not worry about being somewhere all the time. i'm pretty sure i spent a lot of my time missing my kids though.

BLIGHTED OVUM

the last five weeks have been crazy emotional on all levels.

austin & i had been talking about when to have another baby for a couple of months & 5 weeks, january 14, ago we found out i was pregnant. i was shocked & excited, like really shocked. i didn't think that it would happen as quickly as it did, it almost made it hard for me to believe it was real, but it was! 

before finding out i was pregnant i had planned to take the kids to disneyland & since all the rides i can take both the kids on are pregnant-friendly, we still went. while we were there i noticed that i was having some bleeding. it wasn't heavy, i thought it was probably from implantation but i decided to go home a little earlier than planned so that i could take the rest of the day easy. the next day, tuesday, the bleeding hadn't let up & i decided to go to urgent care to get things checked out & from there i started a 5 week emotional rollercoaster.

**side note: with the way that our insurance works, i had to meet with a separate person before being able to meet with my obgyn for my first initial pregnancy appointment. i called them first before going to urgent care & she said she couldn't get me in for another week. in the meantime i went to urgent care.**

at the urgent care they told me that they thought i was having a miscarriage but that they were going to draw my blood to see if my levels were going up at all. two days later, thursday,  i went back in & was told that they still believed it was a miscarriage but that my levels did go up, so they were going to draw blood again. they did this two more times before making an ultrasound appointment for me on monday. 

i was really excited to go to the ultrasound because i thought that i would get a definite answer, but when i was there the technician told me that they weren't allowed to discuss what they can see on the machine. so i left with no answers. luckily, i was going to meet the woman to make my appointment with my actual obgyn which was set for two weeks away when i would be 8 weeks along. between then i kept going to the urgent care to get my blood drawn but i felt like they weren't doing a lot besides taking my blood & saying i was miscarrying. i knew something obviously was not right because i was still bleeding, but i felt like there was more going on than that the urgent care obgyn was telling me.

after a couple more meetings at urgent care i decided to call my doctors office & see if under the circumstances i could come in earlier & thankfully i could. i cannot tell you the amount of comfort it gave me to see my actual obgyn. he is such an amazing doctor & doesn't take anything lightly like i felt the doctor at urgent care did. I was able to get in to seem him the wednesday after my first ultra sound. austin had gone out of town for work so i went by myself which i didn't think would be a big deal, but after i wished so badly that he could have been there with me. 

my doctor gave me another ultra sound & asked me multiple times if i was having pain on the left side, i told him no & he said hmm, he seemed interested in the fact that i wasn't in tremendous pain, or any pain really & after a couple minutes of checking everything out told me to meet him in his office. immediately my brain went to the worst & i started thinking he was going to tell me i had cancer or something. why else would i be in pain or he think i should be in a pain? it was the only logical answer to me. i went in to his office & he showed me the ultra sound & told me he believed i was having an ectopic pregnancy. & that is where i tuned out. he asked me again if i was in pain & i said no & he kind of seemed like he was in disbelief. he told me that normally ectopic pregnancies are really painful & that he did think it was interesting that my hcg levels were going up so much. he scheduled me for another appointment to see if my numbers were going up & see if he could see more in another ultrasound. 

after the appointment i called austin crying on the phone, telling him that they think it is an ectopic pregnancy. it was really hard to tell him & luckily he was able to come home early so that he could make it to my next appointment on friday. 

i went home & googled ectopic pregnancies & read up on everything about it, at least enough that my brain could handle at my emotional state. i learned that ectopic & tubal are often thought of as the same but you can have an ectopic pregnancy without it being tubal. you can have a pregnancy that isn't in the uterus which is incredibly dangerous for the mother & because it isn't in the uterus, it is ectopic. tubal pregnancy are in the fallopian tube & are very dangerous cause it can cause your tube to burst & destroy your tube which makes it difficult in the future to get pregnant. since a tubal pregnancy isn't in your uterus it is also an ectopic pregnancy. 

after reading all about it, i honestly did not feel better about the situation but i tried to remain as calm as i could until i heard what the doctor said at my next appointment. 

when austin & i got to the next appointment the doctor talked to us before doing another ultrasound. he told us that after looking more at the ultrasound & my hcg numbers going up so much that he believed it was actually a tubal pregnancy. as soon as he said that my eyes flooded with tears. i couldn't help it. especially after all that i had read about tubal pregnancies. he told us that we are young & will be able to have more children in our future one way or another, whether it would be natural or through ivf. he also said that if we wanted he could administer a shot that would force my body to end the pregnancy instead of surgery which is how many tubal pregnancies are taken care of. he said that there was a viable baby from what he could see, but that it was hard to tell because of how early i was.

all of it was so intense, my emotions were at an all time high & i was so happy to have austin there. my doctor was being really kind too, he was trying to be so reassuring & comforting since i was clearly distraught, but it wasn't really working. after meeting with him we went in for another ultra sound & there he told me: "your pregnancy might be ok. what we thought was a tube actually may have been a vein." you cannot imagine how it made me feel. i broke down. i had just been told that i might lose my tube, that i might need to go through ivf & now my baby may be ok. i was all over the emotional map at this point. he told me that since i was in so early that it can change a lot in a couple of days, so  i needed to schedule to come back & we would see where the baby was at then. take in mind, i am still bleeding at this time.

austin & i went home so confused, lost & slightly hopeful. i tried really hard not to get my hopes up, i didn't want to start believing that i was going to have a healthy baby just to be told again that i wasn't. i don't think i did a good job at that though. 

next monday when we went in for the ultrasound is when we learned that what i was actually experiencing was a blighted ovum. he showed us on the ultrasound how the sac was growing how it was supposed to be, but the baby was not. he said that he wanted to give my body a week to see if i would naturally reject the pregnancy & if not we would schedule for a d&c. 

i was really hopeful that my body would miscarry on its own, but here i am, one week post d & c. i went in to the doctor last monday & had another ultra sound showing us that the sac has grown but the embryo has not. it's the same size as it was the last week we measured it. we made an appointment to have a d&c for tuesday afternoon. honestly, after everything that has happened & not having answers for so long, it was a relief to be given a solid answer & know that i would need a d&c. on top of having an answer, it was a huge relief to know that i was not having an ectopic or tubal pregnancy. knowing that gave me reassurance that i will be able to get pregnant in the future, that i didn't have to worry about my tube bursting & that for the most part, i wasn't at risk.

this pregnancy is nothing we could have planned for. having already had a miscarriage (you can read about my last miscarriage here)  couldn't have prepared me because this entire trial was so different on so many levels. trying to get pregnant & then getting pregnant is such a vulnerable thing. it can be so scary, even in the healthiest of pregnancies it can be scary because your body is going through such a change, you don't ever really know what is going on. after going through this for what felt like, forever, definitely makes me nervous for the future & trying to get pregnant again. after going through two miscarriages i have a fear that a third baby won't happen, but i know that i do need to remain positive. the hardest part often times is getting pregnant & i already have two healthy little boys, so  i know that my body is able & i am so thankful that i know that. 

MY SKINCARE ROUTINE

the last few months i have been OBSESSED with my skincare. really, austin is so sick of me talking about facewashes & serums & what not. i have spent a long time deciding what products are just right for my skin, what works for me, what i should & shouldn't use & all the ins & outs of my skincare routine. i've been researching & talking to literally everyone & feel like i finally have figured it out. now, i'm no skin expert, this is just what works for me but these are truly all products that i love.

i categorize my skin type as sensitive/dry to normal/dry. my skin is really, very dry. i can go to the most humid climate & still have dry skin, so i have to seriously moisturize if i want my face to last through the day. i have times where it can be really sensitive, but for the most part its pretty much normal/dry. i'm not acne prone, however when i do get acne its on the cystic side of things which really sucks. especially because i was a born picker & picking at cystic acne is the absolute worst thing to do. i try my best not to do it, but i'm human.

my cousins & i were all talking about skincare, cause like me they are obsessed, & i learned about caroline hirons. i had never heard of her before but she knows her stuff. for real. i love reading her posts & watching her videos, she is such a well of knowledge when it comes to skin, so if you haven't read or hear of her, you totally sure.

it was from her that i developed my skincare routine. i learned the importance of washing my face morning & night & adopted a dual-wash system.

1. cleanse
2. exfoliate/ tone
3. spray hydrate
4. eye cream
5. serum/oil
6. moisturize

every morning i go through this routine. i've been using the YTTP wash for three months & it has completely transformed my skin, afterwards i use my toner & then spray my face with herbivore rose water which i forgot to show! followed up with my YTTP age prevention serum, which i totally love. when i'm able i am planning to switch it out with a retinol, but for right now this one is more in my price range! i then use the eye boosting oil & after i drop the fresh oil across my forehead & cheeks, then i rub it in & follow with the dr. jart+ hydro gel, which i also totally love. 

1. makeup remover/ cleanse
2. cleanse
3. exfoliate (2x's a week)
4. tone
5. hydrate spray
6. eye cream
7. serum/treatments/oil
8. moisturize

i think the biggest change in my skin has come from the dual-cleanse i've started doing. i always felt like my makeup didn't get all taken off from my face wash, but the dual system makes my skin squeaky clean. i started using this system with the philosophy purity wash because my cousin gave me a travel size one & i have really liked it, it is so soft on my skin. i then follow up with the YTTP wash, i use a witch hazel toner because i don't think my skin needs something that will dry it with an acid. then i apply the YTTP age serum, my eye boosting oil followed with glossier's super pure which i swear by. that stuff seriously works against acne, it is amazing. everyone needs it. & after i drop the fresh oil across my forehead & cheeks, then i rub it in & follow with the dr. jart+ hydro gel, just like i do in the morning.

twice a week i skin the philosophy wash & start with my YTTP & follow through with the cure scrub which is amazing. you apply a decent amount to your face & let it sit a minute & then lightly rub your face & it peels off so many dead skin cells. it is seriously so gratifying to see all the skin come up. i'm weird like that. but i love this product, you need to use it. 

VALENTINE PIZZAS


this year for valentines day we decided to keep things mellow & stay at home with the boys & make an evening of it. i think it is so fun celebrating the little holidays with kids, they get so excited! cedar was so excited for his valentine party at school, especially because he got to have two of them so he got double the valentines! every kids dream. 

the night before valentines day we set up a couple little goodies we got the boys & decoratod the table to make it look valentine-y. in the morning they were so excited to see what they got & were so happy when we made them waffles (we don't make waffles that much because i'm impatient & think they take too long!). after i got cedar from school we made valentine cookies while milo napped. it was a perfect, mellow valentines day. 

for dinner we decided it would be fun to make mini heart shaped pizzas & got some martinelli's to fancy it up, the boys loved it. we used a big cookie cutter to make the dough into a heart & then had mini pepperonis & made some cheesy bread. it was all really good & easy. 

we got pre-made dough from trader joes, one dough made about 4 mini pizzas, so we got two doughs so we had extra for the cheesy bread. we then topped it with tomato sauce or pesto, mozzarella cheese & the mini pepperonis & baked them for about 10 minutes at 375. so easy & it was a big hit. i think we have found our new valentine tradition. 


VALLEY OF FIRE

every time austin & i drive to or from utah we talk about driving through valley of fire but never do, for one reason or not. last time we were driving home se decided to go for it. it's right outside of vegas & added a couple extra hours to our drive but it was totally worth it. the kids definitely needed a break from the car & we were feeling one too. we hiked around a bit & let the kids run around in all the red sand & look for petroglyphs. they loved it. 

the drive was really pretty too. the red rock totally pops out against the blue sky & it's so random! there are no other mountains near it or any other red rock except this random little patch that makes all these red towers. i would totally go back & am planning to. 

if you ever have a chance to go, it's worth it!